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[sugarcookiebitch]

 heh... 2 days ago i joined a 2000s alternative discord server and they had a freaking application to fill out it wasnt that bad but idk i guess the way they were talking to these weird people made me scared even though they had a reason to. they also had a list some musical artists or bands that align with your subculture but i put a ska? band for scene and i was like PLEASEPLAEASEPLEASE idk i was just scared for some reason

anyway i joined the server cuz i wanted to talk to people and it had 500 members
a perfect amount of people, not too little not too much
especially with the application
but like the server is BARELY active
youd think the general channel would at least be more than 50 messages
but i did get to like one short convo with this person about how im eating and watching Remainings play roblox

but then later i realized that if u want to talk to people u just have to discuss things in certain channels
like this person sent LOVE YOU TO DEATH AHHH in the music reccomendations channel and i was like... uhh hey! i love them too
THEY LOVE "FULLY AWARE FULLY PREPARED" TOO YAYY
then the same person sent their new dog, and it had the same fur as my first dog who ran away(it was a black and brown chihuahua terrier mix!!!)
soo CUTEEE. asked them what they were naming it and hten i brought up how my first dog was called peanut
"peanut or done" "oh peanut is the name of the dog"

yesterday i sent some music reccomendations with one being this artist i really like(DJ East Wolf) and talked about D4DJ
this person was like "i used to love d4dj" and then they brought up bandori and i was like HOLY BALLLLLL
ok its(bandori) popular but not as popular as pjsk or talked about

after i took a freaking chemistry test i saw a person sent their blind bag/box mlp figures and they had so much
look at my pfp(MLP as of now), i had to ask about their other collections
and i also sent the toys i had
and then we starteed talking about where and how to find mlp stuff because its just being resold cuz people grew out of it
and then also about equestira girls/human figures and how they always seem off to them style and characteristic wise

AA!!!
so cool so cool so cool sans so cool so cool so cool SHUT UP SANS
i want to make friends BY MYSELF and not become friends who are friends with my friends
im proud of myself
time to work up the courage to start up a convo with people irl again...